Monday, August 26, 2013

I'm not breaking up with you

Alright, I know it has been quite some time. I've been back from South Africa for over a month now and never clearly finished a post wrapping up on my journey. A lot of you kept asking me "What happened, why didn't you finish your blog?" Well there is two reasons... A) Because google decided to lock me out of my own account for a good week not allowing me to fill you guys in and B) I just didn't want to come to terms with my experience at Jazzart coming to an end. So I've chose to not let it come to an end and if I created a "final post" on my journey it would kind of feel like I was "breaking up" with Jazzart, so instead I've decided to keep us in an "open relationship". Or should I say "long distance"?

My last day in Cape Town I spent with all of JA in the studio. It was filled with a huge amount of hugs, laughs, tears, kisses, boogers, and emotions. Part of me was smiling because I was walking away with a new family of love, support, and inspiration, and the other part of me was frowning because well... I was walking away from that incredible family. But in fact even 6 weeks after I had left to return back to the states they are still behind me one hundred percent, and the distance really means nothing.

Upon returning home, I've set out to reach my goals of performing professionally which means auditions, auditions, auditions. Any artist knows that this is not an easy industry, you can simply get cut at an audition by the way you look rather than how fierce you work that stage. Currently I am in New York City, the land of dreams, auditioning for some dance positions of cruise lines, musicals, and some other things in between. I won't lie, it gets a little discouraging when you don't get a role you were hoping for. But what's more encouraging? Getting a message from someone half way across the world who is still supporting me, telling me not to be discouraged, to remember why I do what I love to do, and to believe in myself like they believe in me.

As I move on to this other chapter of my beautiful life, this final post doesn't serve as "The End"...just  a page into the next one.

See, Jazzart Dance Theatre? You are still with me. In fact you are stuck with me. I'm not breaking up with you....

Lots of love, hugs, laughs, tears, kisses, boogers, and emotions
XoXo - Annamaria

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